engaged.

this is very happy time in most women's lives it is supposed to be exciting and lots of fun. but since i am a man stuck in a woman's body it is a problem i freak out about simple things. i don't want to get married it will be miserable with the commitment and stress to add on to my other 99 problems.i canit even have decent bridesmaids.. all of the ones i like are moving to another state.
first there is my sister. she is a  crazy.  bitch. monica she is 27 and asked our 19 year old brother for drugs.. oh ew.
then there is melissa. i asked her to take pictures of macy in september of last year and i have seen 2 maybe 3.  her sister is pregnant but she will pretend she is. she likes to live vicariously through her.
we have come to keri she is moving to arizona. she dislikes jordan and she is currently my closest friend she will move to arizona and forget all about me.
kelly is moving to hawaii in may. she is a good friend she tries to be a good friend it is one of her top priorities. we were very close then when jordan and i started dating she and i grew apart not in a bad way but in a growing way.
whitney she is moving to ohio. she is one of my best friends. although i forget i hagve her because she is so far away. she isswept upin her romance with her boyfriend who they both belevie they will get married to one day.
no matterhow i look at it i still do not want to get married. i think only one of those people will have  my back if i needed them too. i want all five of them too. iwonit uninvite anyone but i will hold off getting married until i have at least one more. :)