i am dreaming with a broken heart

i think i am ready to be by myself. i mean single without a boyfriend. i have had a boyfriend for almost 3 years and i only liked having a significant other for about 3 weeks. i donit mean that i donit like any men. i just donit feel happy i feel held down like i not only have to watch what i do for macy and myself but this other person too. i want to talk to boys and not feel guilty that they are given me attention. i know it sounds selfish but it is about my happiness.

i feel like i am living with a broken heart. i donit want a boyfriend at all i jsut want to be by myself and with my baby. i think some single momis would love to be in my shoes with someone who loves them who helps them with their baby. i feel like i am alone any ways.

i didnit have a boyfriend for 18 years i was fine then. i always felt alone and like i didnit have any friends so i decided that if i had a boyfriend it would solve all my problems but i was wrong. some girl think if they have a baby they will have somone who will love them forver but with me it was a boyfriend i desired. i didn't desire to havge sex i just wanted someone to talk to and someone to buy presents for for no reason. i have a promised i am goodat keeping for myself i tell myself if i don't want to do it don't sign up for it i have the power to choose happiness for myself no one makes me do anything i don't want to  do.